Everything we own will soon belong to another. We actually never really own anything, but we are allowed to use material things for a little while. It all belongs to God. What is important is how we have used our time, talents, and possessions. Have we tried to serve and glorify God with all that we have, and all that we are? We are accountable to God for what we have done with our lives. At best, we can say that we are "unprofitable servants". Everything that we do is mixed with sin, and needs to be washed in the blood of Christ. Even our prayers and religious duties and devotions need to be cleansed.
Thank God that there is a solution in the gospel for us. By faith in the perfect righteousness of Christ, that cleansing power is available for free, "without money and without price" (Isaiah 55). The perfect works of Christ become ours by faith.
To update you a little on the progress of my disease, I rarely leave the house anymore. It is too difficult with the winter conditions, and I feel most comfortable in my own environment. To get through the nights peacefully, I am taking low doses of morphine. I sleep a little more, and it helps me tolerate the cramping a bit better. The only drawback is that I am more dopey in the mornings.
I am at peace with God's dealings in my life. Although the way is difficult, and I am tired of the journey, I do feel that God is walking with me and sustaining me every day. Please pray that Lena and I would receive the strength and patience to endure to the end.